unsure of what's ahead

by Gerard
(Bentonville AR)

I'm a recent quad-bypass patient,(nov.5 2010) only 30 days after my 60th bday. I was feeling positive not having had a major heart attack only to have the angina return in less than 60 days with 8 stents in early feb. 2011.
I was in rehab 3/w, had lost 15 lb in 3 months, was eating much better but....I scar really bad and the ugly one on the outside must have been doing it's thing on the grafts and is most likely why I had such a total failure, 100% blocked.
So now we're trying stents. I just don't know how long these will last. They say to give it 6-9 months and if they have not closed i'll be in the clear.(but for how long) But I hold little hope after the last failure. im 4 days into this new phase but feel the devil(cad) is going to rob me and my family of our future.
My mind use to dream of seeing my girls married and my wife and I being a great set of grand-parents, willing and able to help, but now I wonder if i'll even see them graduate next spring.(college and high school)
Right now life really SUCKS.