Life after a heart attack
After suffering a eart attack in 1990 my life has never been the same. Prior to this event I was a smoker although ironic as it may seem was on patches trying to kick the habit when I suffered my heart attack. Having said this I sucseeded having never smoked since my heart attack. This you may think is fantastic, one problem, since my heart attack alcholhol as taken the place of the cigarettes see Im so drunk im not even sure how you spell it.
I am married and have been for 36 years with 2 now grown up children, but since my heart attack I find myself slipping more and more into deep depresion along with the dependancy for alchohol.
Once I used to really enyoy christmas and taking holidays with my wife and now even they have faded away out of my enjoyable moments.
I must admit the alchohol problem has played a huge part in this problem. My wife has been a huge rock and support throughout ths period which has now lasted a decade, but now even she as well as I is becoming tired f my depressions.
My wife consttelenly tells me to go and visit a counciller who will help me, I of course resist because truth be known I dont have the guts to take this plunge.
I am at a poimt in my life now where it is sink or swim. I need to do somehing totally new to restore my life before I drown.