Almost Last Call

by Sam

My dad died of an MI at 47. As a result, I began undergoing annual stress testing (I was then 25). A precaution. Always a negative test.

Then, 2 years ago, at age 54 I had an MI when shoveling snow. I have always been fit and a non-smoker. But not stress free, marriage problems and occupational challenges (a member of law enforcement).

Taken to ER via ambulance. Knew that I was close to the edge. Lost my color vision. No images of a white light or tunnel (I was so disappointed!), but rather, sod being rolled over top of me.

Underwent a single stent ( LV). Told that it was a close call. Recovered ok- some angina. Seems like I'm just waiting for the grim weeper to make his final call.

I just have really lost any zeal or passion for life. I know that I should be grateful for a second chance. But the second chance brings with it a broken body and a broken spirit.

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I hear you
by: Sandra

Hi Sam,

I sure know what you mean. After being in and out of hospital five times in five months at age 51 I was discouraged and felt my body couldn't be trusted. Like you, I was a non smoker, fit person - although with heart disease in my family and lots of stress too.

I'm at the 5 1/2 year mark since my event and although it's always at the back of my mind, I can truly say I did get my confidence and my zeal back again. Take care of yourself and if necessary, talk to your doctor about how you are feeling. Depression is very common after a heart event and you may benefit from some assistance dealing with it.

Keep in touch.

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